Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Nicotine deprived rant enclosed. Run for your life.


So, I'm on day two of not smoking. I expect that I will find that yesterday will have been the hardest day to get through, so I'm interested in how today will play out.

It's been so much easier this time than any other time I have quit, and I'm not sure why. There's only been one time that I've made it past the first day, and that was for a few weeks, and I remember crying and being a total raging bitch that first day-even my cat was threatening to pack up his shit and leave.

It's making me a bit nervous that I didn't have that at all on my first day. This time, I decided to get past the "try to quit smoking" idea, and just put the fact in my mind that I'm not trying to quit anymore, and that I already have.

It's kind of weird...the urge to have a cigarette will just pop into my head out of the blue, for no reason at all. It's literally like a timer goes off about every half hour in my brain that says "DING!!! Cigarette!!" and all day yesterday all I could really think of when that happened was how weird it was, because it was really the first time I was aware of that happening.

Then, I have my habits that trigger my wanting one. Talking on the phone is a big one, but the absolute worst is sitting at this computer. Early mornings are no problem for me, I can usually go about my normal routine without having a cigarette first thing. After meals shouldn't be bad either.

No panic, no bitching, no patches or nicotine gum, no obsessing like I have in the past. It's a lot different.

I will admit that I'm feeling a little ditzy. Concentrating on something is hard from time to time, I expect that to go away, and I expect that staying on topic on my blog should prove to be interesting, lol.

So enough of that. I wasn't even going to blog about it, but then I decided that if I wrote a little bit each day about it, it would be a good reinforcement. That, and I'd feel like a total asstard if I had to post that I had started again.

I was sifting through knitting blogs the other night, and ran across this knitting related thread on a Christian forum. It appears that their board is down for maintenence as I post this, but maybe it will be back up later.

I wish I can remember where I found this, but I neglected to bookmark that particular blog :/ and I only bookmarked the thread itself for entertainment purposes.

(Edit: Was driving me crazy that I couldn't find the link to the blog I originally found the link on, so I dug around and found it. He's male, he knits, and he's married. To a woman. Go check out his blog: Yarnboy )

The thread is about whether boys should be taught to knit, and I'm really suprised at how some of the people responded. One person's initial response was simply, "Jesus didn't knit." This kind of made me laugh, but then as I read on, it was clear that there were quite a few people on this board who clearly were against guys who knit...threatening they would ground their kid if they ever caught them knitting..that it was basically "women's work" and not something that is done by a respectful man.

I'm not much of a religious person, I never have been. I could go into the why's and how's of it but that doesn't really matter right this minute...but in the end, I try hard to be respectful of people and their religions, probably more so than they respect someone like me, hehe.

The more I think about it, I don't know if people think guys shouldn't knit because of religion, because of ignorance, or because of both. Is this a religiously based anti-gay opinion? Or are people really that stupid?

It seems that people are convinced that picking up knitting needles makes you gay. Someone said they would ground their kid for doing it. You ground your kid for smoking, for shitty grades, for wrecking the car, for skipping school, for talking back...but picking up knitting needles? Seriously?

While I'm sure that there are gay men who knit, I know that at the same time, there are plenty of straight men who knit, for all sorts of reasons. I know that a lot of religions have a pretty distinct stance against gays, and I'm sure that has a lot to do with some of the ridiculous comments on this particular forum.

Some of my oldest and dearest friends are gay. Some really influential people in my lifetime have been gay. I can say with absolute certainty that they didn't knit, and even if they did, I am positive that I would not be terrified at the sight of them knitting...unless they were going to try to fight me for the good yarn. Gotta have your priorities straight.

Then, we just have people who are just fucking stupid, like the idiot who showed up and announced "Jesus didn't knit" as if that was going to solve the whole debate.

Can anyone find any reference in the bible that says the guy didn't knit? Ok, so the guy was busy turning water into wine and walking on water and feeding thousands of hungry people with just a couple loaves of bread and a couple ratty ol' fish, but who says he never had time to knit? Maybe his feet were cold after walking on water, and he needed a pair of Jaywalkers to keep warm.

And you know, who cares if the guy didn't knit, because there is plenty of history that refers to men knitting, all over the world and in my humble opinion, if you're too stupid to know anything about men knitting in history, then you have absolutely no business responding on a thread and talking out your ass about whether it's respectable or not.

So, I'm going to wrap this up today with a history lesson.

Men knitting

Uber macho samurai knitted. No lie.

Toodles!!

1 comment:

lkmanitou said...

WTG on quitting! At least you have knitting to keep your hands from being idle and st00pid folks on internet boards to bitch at :)

Cool link about the Japanese knitting, esp the knitted katanas. I must now resist the urge to knit sword cozies for our sword collection. Reckon a bit of Manor or Koigu would look good with a broadsword?